Duality of mind and spiritual practices.
Q: I am making efforts to keep a watchful eye on my mind, as much as possible but I feel a kind of duality when I am doing it. Sometimes, I do thing according to your teachings and sometimes I not able to implement them.
A: Chandni, the society has a humongous effect on your mind. For now you are not living your life, you are just living a life which has been dictated, planned, scripted, directed by other people for you. What I teach is to come out of this conditioning, to come out of this scripted way of living; your life should be lived as per your search, as per your wish. Life is a learning process, if you are just imitating people, you dress up as others do and speak those things which will make people happy. This just shows that you are pretty shallow minded person and are definitely not ready for this path because this path is not for monkeys; this path is for human beings. A human being who can think, who can analyze, who can use the power of discrimination, and once you have this power in you, you will never be confused.
So there are two options for you. One is that keep on living as you are living but then don’t be guilty for not following my teachings, don’t be a hypocrite, say it that you are not still ready for this. You are still a monkey minded girl. This may seem as a big slap to you and would help you either to go worldly ways totally or this may help you to find your centre. Have these experiences; they will only give you bruises, injuries and wounds. So go, get yourself hurt. Only through this process you will come to know that following others is dangerous and to be able to use your intellect, you really have to grow.