Why am I Away From Bliss
It is said by the mystics that if you walk one step towards God, He will walk thousand steps towards you. Guru Teg Bahadur once said: “Oh my mother, I have realized the treasure of the Lord within myself, my mind has stopped wondering and is now resting in peace.” Similarly, Sahjobai sang “I am engrossed in the name of Rama and I am singing His glory.” The Bhagavad-Gita says that Krishna is of the bliss form, the Vedas sing saying that Brahma is nectar, the Ramayana sings about the glory of Rama with the words: “Your form is Bliss.”
However, when you sing the glories of the Lord, or when you repeat a mantra, or do japa, do you feel the bliss in your heart? Or when you say that the rock candy is sweet and whoever eats it, it is sweet for them, but if someone does not find it sweet, then you will say that something must be wrong with that person’s taste buds. You will never question the sweetness of the rock candy because it is undoubtedly sweet. Similarly if God is bliss and yet when we pray or get connected to His name, you too should be experiencing immense joy, as it is proclaimed and is accepted by all scriptures, mystics and saints. But this is not happening in your case, not even a shred of joy you experience and yet you never question yourself – what is wrong with you?
“Why can I not experience the ecstasy within?”
You never ever dream of doubting your Holy Scriptures, but you would keep on turning the beads mechanically, reading scriptures or chanting the mantra. What a way of doing things? Is it not better to do these lifeless, aura less prayers because of which you consider yourself wrongly to be truly religious? What sort of religiousness is this?
If God is bliss then you too should feel the same but your eyes are on the hands of the clock to see if it’s time to now get up. Also whilst reading the scriptures you are wondering why it is taking so long to finish. The mind keeps on wondering, the mind will not rest for a while. On the other hand, those who feel oneness with God, for them time ceases to exist. There is a beautiful term in Hindi ‘akal purukh’ meaning ‘a person above time or an existence which is timeless’. However, when you sit to meditate you are just counting minutes and seconds passing by which means that you are not meditating upon the timeless existence.
Kaal means ‘time’ and God is above time. Therefore, whenever you truly meditate, you too should be in the timeless zone, the worldly time stops for you in those moments. Whenever you have happy moments in your life, then time is flying, but whenever you have misery or suffering, then the moments seem to have lengthened and do not seem to pass away, time seems to stand still. So whenever a person meditates, or is trying to be one with the Lord and the lord is pure bliss then definitely the time should fly away.
If someone is deeply engrossed in prayers, for him time has no existence, he tastes the pure nectar, would this person be bothered about how much time has passed away? But for you time factor is always there.
I am here to touch the chord in your heart, to stir strings that may result in the yearning for the divine. Once this happens, once this hunger burns you up it will consume you and will push you to search for the divinity – for the master, for someone to lead you on this sacred path of mysticism. One who tastes the divine love, one who is mesmerized with true love need not do anything else to experience tranquility. Such a person will not have to do anything to make the rattling mind still. This mind will be absolutely still and silent and you will say that the mind is dead. Therefore, either you have the treasure of divine love or if you do not have such depth of love, then you need the method of meditation and feel the ecstasy within.